I just can't do it...

I am sitting here watching my the shows I haven't watched on my DVR (our dish turns off friday), my house is a disaster, boxes, things to be boxed, and things I have no idea which box to put them in. Dishes in the sink, clothes everywhere, and here I am on the blog...watching my DVR.

Kristi came up sunday night stayed till tuesday morning....packed and packed...I stood and watched. Since then I have wandered around the house, putting things in boxes here and there, and just finding any excuse to procrastinate. Luckily for me she comes back tonight....the big moving day is Saturday. I haven't decided why it's been so hard. I don't remember having such a hard time leaving my little apartment, I don't know if it's because I'm overwhelmed, sad to leave, in denial, wishing that this wasn't happening, watching all my things be put in boxes & feeling a loss of control, knowing that I am moving from my wonderful little house with a fence, yard & wonderful neighbors to a tiny apartment that I hope will at least have a little patch of grass to play on, I don't know what it is but I just can't do it.

I love my little sis, if it wasn't for her...I'd be sitting in a mess with no boxes packed. As I stood and watched she just kept boxing. I'm also grateful for my friends & family who have been so willing to help, 5 years of marriage & 2 kids...makes a lot of stuff.

So wish me luck...here we go to the next adventure...my poor in laws, who are so generously taking us in...we are quite the group.

Just for the record...I couldn't be more excited for Jared to continue his education...I know he is doing it to better our life & I am proud of how hard he's worked to get here...